Happy New Year?

I'm baaaack!

So we have the new year, and like a phoenix I regenerate my goals and dreams and blah blah blah. I'd like to anyway. By this time of year ( a week into it) I tend to feel the anti-climax. I've already broken resolutions... I've seen that nothing has really changed.. and I start to fall into the Fuck it Funk...

I did my weight and measurements today, was kinda hoping to have lost a bit more by now. Im not going to say the 3 month challenge was a complete failure.. I did reinforce a love (or maybe just a happy like) for running.. or trying to run. I did a fun run. I didn't put ON weight.

But cant help think.. what is wrong with me? Why can't I actually stick to anything?

Depressing. I'm a lone soul stuck in my own fish bowl... year after year.

But No. I refuse to give in. When you stop trying, you fail.

But Im embarrassed!

So like that Phoenix, from the pits of my despair, I get up and start again. A new three month challenge! This time with no photos. What's the point? I havent changed.
I gotta break into double digits!

So I thought I would list my New Years Resolutions here. Yep, I still make them :)

1. Do 5 fun runs. At least if I do these, I can guarantee 5 weeks this year where I will be jogging to be fit for the fun runs. Ultimate goal by the end of the year? Run 5k's. I can do this if I keep trying!

2. Be positive.Postive thoughtforms. Positive energy - perpetuate positive thinking and positive habits and .. shut up. The inner grump feels like throwing a bucket of water on little miss sunshine :)

3. Become and employed Solicitor. This one will be hard. But I won't give up - My HECS debt will be more than $75 000 by the end of the year.. I think I will consider myself as having 'made it' when my yearly income is more than my HECS debt ;p

I know I'm being a negative Nelly right now... I'll snap out of it. I'm just feeling dejected. Sick of trying, but what is the alternative?

Here are my current measurements:

Measurements - 550cm (when adding up all the cm's) Lost 1 cm since September

(Thinnest part of my) Waist: 100 cm

Stomach (taken just below my belly button): 117.5 cm

Hips: 118 cm

Upper Thigh: 75.5 cm

Above the knee (4cm above the freckle): 54.5cm

Neck: 41 cm

Upper Arm: 43.5cm

 

Weight: 104.1 kg (lost 1.2kgs)

BMI: 36.0 Obese (yay - down 0.5!)

So I think I need to end this post with some positives:

• I haven't GAINED weight
• My BMI is down
• My total cm is down
• I went for a jog yesterday
• I've bought entries for a fun run on 13th Jan (1 week from today) and one some time in May..
• I have lost 16 kgs since 7 Nov 2011.. and kept it off (the biggest achievement)

Come on Nicole - snap out of it!
Ok!

So here is to a new year... and finding and being more positive. :)