An unpleasant reminder

I was talking about this photo today, and it was taken almost a year ago, on the 1/11/11. I was about 120kg, and feeling yuck. I hated my body. I was trying to lose weight, but nothing was working. I was smoking and eating a lot.

Then I signed up for some personal training - My waist was 120cm. Huge! And I knew, if nothing happened, I would just get bigger and bigger.

When I first saw this photo, my first thought was, how can they love me? They do love me, but how?

That's really sad. If I have learnt anything, I have learnt that I was giving up too easily. You have to change everything. And you have to get that heart rate up! Get out of that comfort zone... even (and especially) if you don't want to.

And I have been doing that with the c25k podcasts... I'm 50/50 when it comes to doing them, but I want to do them and I gave myself the goal of doing a fun run - and I don't want to embarass myself.

Also I need to remind myself, I have lost a lot of weight - almost 20kg.. and it doesn't matter if there are '30 to go'.. I've lost 20 so far :)