The Night before....

The fun run is tomorrow and the 'don't wannas' have set in.

Do I really want to do this?

Yes I do. I was so psyched about it. And I do want to do it. But I haven't gone for a run for a few weeks, I've been so focused on getting essays in and preparing for exams... October has been a busy month. My last exam is on friday. I am not really ready, but I'm going to give it my best shot - I have to pass to graduate!

It is a take home exam, which means I have 10 hours to download, complete and upload again.. and hand it in at uni. The kids will be at school and kindy. We have an abundance of milk in the fridge (though I would rather it was pepsi max!). Apparently it would take a prepared student 4 hours to do. OMFG. So I will need the whole 10!

I want to start running again. I don't want my body to get lazy ... and I remember how horrid my calves were.. so I wanna make sure they don't get sooky again ;p

And my body feels heavy again. I havent really been watching what I eat... and I havent been exercising. I havent gained weight and I definately havent reached that 20kg mark. I was 800g off. I want to reach that 20kg mark by 7th Nov! Can I focus and do this?

Yes!

I was starting to bow out of the fun run when Christine said something about me definately regretting not doing it. She is right! Gotta get out of that comfort zone. I'm quite used to making a dick of myself in social situations.. so its silly that I'm afraid of embarrassing myself for being unfit at a fun run!

Its tomorrow afternoon. Exam friday. New lease on life on Saturday - aim to lose 2kgs (at last look I was 102kg - again, I dont really want to weigh myself) by next wednesday. It is possible - especially if its just bloating from bread :)

I will :)