Hump week is over, yee haaaaaa. It's that week at Uni, usually towards the end of the semester when everything is due - and this year, it was the second week of the school holidays - and I was stressed and cranky and remorseful and trying and not getting anywhere. I only managed to do one c25k session last week, and I generally ate properly. Well I must have gone ok, because I weighed in today and I've lost a kilo - so I'm back to my pre-holiday weight, and still precariously close to reaching that big 20!Losing weight is not just about diet and exercise. Maintaining a healthy diet and getting up off that butt and movin' and shakin' it is all in the mind. My mistakes are in my mind. The sadness and anger that leads to comfort eating swirls around in my mind. You have to be committed. You need to conquer your demons. You have to ask yourself:
"Are you fat cos you ate badly and were so busy you didn't exercise, or are you fat cos you are a sad, sad person and hate yourself?"
I think I'm a bit of both. But I dont hate myself. I love me, I'm fascinated by me :) I'm loving this work in progress... though I do beat myself up about things. I have to ask myself, if it is because of the sad sad thing, what is making me sad and eat till I'm in a food coma?
Meh, this all feels too heavy right now. I'm still recuperating after hump week :) On the plus side, the jog today went fairly well - I've decided to be nice to my body and do the week 2 podcast for 2 weeks as well... it's still an effort to jog and so I don't think I'm taking it too easy on myself.. and I can feel myself getting fitter.
I'm still as slow as a snail but I feel faster :) And my calves are broken in lol .. they don't hurt like they did a month ago. You could say I have happy calves.
Funny that. On the way back from the other end of the street is a farm with cows, and they were all running around this afternoon - there were at least 10 calves running around, and 4 of them were having a blast together, running ahead. So cute. Happy calves.
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