Neeeeearly there :)

I have another loss of 700g.. which brings me to 101.4kg... sooo close to the big 20!
I'm excited for the big 20 because it means two things - 1. I have lost 20kgs, and 2. I will be under 100kg! Awesome!

And I have to remind myself how close I am and not give up now. I have been slipping up a bit with eating.. but I've taken the attitude that everyday is a new day... start everyday with a promise to myself and keep it as best I can.

And it will become habit. It just has to. It will get to the point where I'm good more often than bad and the weight will come off. It sucks that it has taken 10 years to get my ass into gear.. I have missed out on feeling attractive and good about myself in my 20s, when my body was young and my face was bright. But instead of mourning the loss of my youth (;p) I will love my 30s... I'm 31 now, and so much more wiser when it comes to the universe and myself... I think I really am coming into my own :) Graduating, losing weight, the kids growing up fairly normal - sure the house is a mess, we are always broke and I feel like a blob, but things will get better.



We really are lucky and we have come a long way in the last 10 years :) Even Allan has grown up!

I have another c25k session this afternoon. My calves are still a bit sore, so I'm feeling anxious - but I'm still going to do it :) I am still planning on doing the fun run - and I even plan to keep it up while on holiday next week! I have to just make sure I push myself to do it!

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I just did the c25k again. I'm starting to feel frustrated with it - I'm not ready to give up, but my calves are so sore. I remember the last time I attempted the program I had sore muscles for the whole two weeks, but on the last day I did it, I was feeling good and the muscles weren't hurting, but I could tell something was going to happen if I didn't get proper shoes. I was using Dunlop Volleys, which anyone who knows of them, knows they aren't made for running ;p I remember with every step I took I could feel pains shooting up my shins - and I knew if I kept going I would do damage. But now I have proper shoes (but more suited for walking/cross training) and I know the muscles need to get used to it - I'm just feeling impatient!

I will still try and keep going - and if, by the time of the fun run (in 6 weeks and 3 days) I am still grumbling etc and my muscles are still giving me the shits, I will give up the running thing.. until I start training for the next fun run ;p we'll see how I feel at the time!